reactionary rhyme

I know about your kind.
The way you move about the streets.
I know that when you look at her you like what you see...

I know you lick your lips
and think of her slit
and go
"shit ma lemme go circles round your clit!"

Its the reason why Erykah spits
Profound shit 'bout niggaz and
That heightened master teacher
The one who is man enough to know that to place hands upon without permission is sin.
Woman enough to know that what lies within is the gift of goodness and divinity

Will.
Without hesitation.
Raise that smoking musket of liberation
and blow the roaming eyes and hands off of the intruder

Why you walk and talk behind her silently approach blind her with darkness as if all sensibility is lost in the throes of fear. And premature blood.

Be careful.
Please do not touch.
Beginnings resides here.

-inspired by my experiences and my favorite poet Staceyann Chin

calm comotion

I'm trying. I'm trying. I'm trying. I can(?).

India Arie says:

It doesn't cost a thing to smile.
You don't have to pay to laugh.
You better thank God for that.

It's all about perception.

So you act-so you feel-so you are.

It's all about the size of the faith in your heart.

...I had an interesting text-convo with my stepmom. Inspirational and long...cuz i've been in a funk...

Trying to figure out my path and simultaneously feeling like I have no control over anything...

Keeping in my mind that God is in control is so very hard to live up to for some reason. Keeping my heart and mind open is crucial...

I try to yet I will not change who I am cuz where i've been and where i'm goin is all because of who i've been. I'm struggling with faith in God and myself.

i call myself "baby". when baby needs inspiration, i say: "baby...come on baby...i can do it...".

I have to repeatedly remind myself that what's mine will be just for me. God knew me before this world therefore, he will watch me and take care of me.

But, reminders only work if I believe in them. (as per my sm.)

Tanya really helped me the other day with her faithful words and her life encompassing quotes. I'm glad I texted and she called. I think she's an angel in disguise. So I want to immortalize her throught my blog. =]

Other than that...I'm gonna try harder to let go and let God. And to control my attitude and be thankful for who I am.

How's she doing?...

She's doing fine.
She's sleeping at
night. During the day too.
With the windows open and the music blasting.
She's waking up with a faint smile and a fading memory.
She wants to
drink peppermint tea and read curve magazine.
She wants to give back to
someone who doesn't exist yet.
Still beautiful, she wants to paint in her
room with no interruptions.
She wants to paint her room.
She's not a flower.
She's the seed and the
soil.
She's now peeking through towards the
sunlight.

I SHOULD CARE

But, this is the perfect situation. So i don't.

She has a girlfriend... But I want her. So...Ima get her. She wants me. I'm up for the taking. And giving... and getting... :-P

So. That is my situation with T.

M is another deal. Wtf? Georgia is too far for me. Dead. But still friends.

S... she lives in Uniondale. Something is in order.

I just wanna have fun. I'm leaving for my new life in two months!!!
Girls are are my mind. Just girls and art. That's how it's supposed to be.

I wanna put some art up but I'm on my last piece for my concentration. I gotta stay focused. I'll put it up 2morrowow. That's when I'll be finished.

0.o <--- EXCITED

I just applied to a bunch of places. I still want to work at the beach though.

Hope that works out. Goodnite. I'm tired...