Future::Sagaba::Oxygen

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"...she got that gift of gravity pulling to ask her name
she says sagaba
what’s it mean?
she says in ilokano
it translates into suffering..."

"...now i couldn’t stand to see the queen breathe her dreams away
and tell me her tomorrow will never become today"

"dreams be the ashes burnt and thrashing in the wind
flying out of the burning bush attached to sista’s hand
she whispers “word”
smiling giving thanks and living in
doubt, no longer as she figures out the riddle to the song
saying why must we suffer now to not suffer later if
later never comes soon enough to soothe the hatred
and hatred is the cancer spilling out love’s absence
and the absence is the void left from missing every chance to
challenge our fate and perhaps our very names
sista says peace and prayers for rain and change"

...I feel like the storyteller met me...in a way...word...

Yo. I've been feeling Blue Scholars deep in my bones for like... mad long...


☛ Sooo... I had a dream a couple of nights ago ☚

::::: I fell asleep and In the dream I was in the bed that I fell asleep in as if I was awake. But. I couldn't move!! I was so terrified!!

I tried to call my sister. She came in the room even though I couldn't even open my mouth. She couldn't help me I tried to lift me legs... my arms... my head... I couldn't do a damn thing. Like I was paralyzed.

Then a mirror appeared before me so that I could see my body. So I could see my struggle. Then I looked myself in the face and thought::: If God wants me to move, He will allow me to move:::

Then I moved my head to get in a more comfortable position to wait for God's word. To my surprise, my head moved so freely and that movement woke me up as if I had moved in my head while I was awake.

I woke up even more terrified because God has spoken to me. Then after a couple seconds with the light on in my room... I became elated.

I had been praying for a word from Him. A steady rock. An encouragement that everything will be alright in this season of intense turmoil in my life. And He came through.

That's why I stay on my grind, yo. I want my dreams...my goals...to be as big as my actions...

And so. Through all the prayer, and the church...and more prayer. And off the CHAIN pastors and ministers who sound crazy and act sorta ghetto... (God has a sense of humor ya'll)...

I'm blessed more than a muh f*cka. :-D

Jay-Z is right. Life starts when the church ends. But that's only cuz God follows wherever you take him. Don't have to keep ur praise in the building. I still raise and clap my hands anywhere I go.

Thank you Lord. :-)

Ok.. So... mad shit goin down in my family. Court cases. Yes. Plural.

Uhm...School madness. (When, oh when is my turn?? Soon!! Now!!)

Work stress. (Rude people don't deserve customer service. We need a slapping policy...gnome sayin'??)

But at this moment...

I'm dying to finish up...

...this painting.>>> *Up!*

Hey Hey Hey!!

Wats this?!!

:-D



(Music:: Shing02 "Luv (sic) pt. 2")

Reminds me of the painting I did of my lil sis...



>>*Oxygen*<< Inspired by Willy Mason "Oxygen"

"...I wanna be better than oxygen
So you can breathe when you're drowning and weak in the knees
I wanna speak louder than Ritalin
For all the children who think that they've got a disease
I wanna be cooler than t.v.
For all the kids that are wondering what they are going to be
We can be stronger than bombs
If you're singing along and you know that you really believe
We can be richer than industry
As long as we know that there's things that we don't really need
We can speak louder than ignorance
Cause we speak in silence every time our eyes meet...."

It's amazing. It's beautiful. Peace.

ReVamp

I'm "Bright-eyed, bushy-tailed and off beat."

I'm an amateur at this ... But i'm feeling great nonetheless.



Thanxxx to my GirlJimmy for inspiring me to revisit cool calm pete. Don't have him in my i-pod. I have no reason. Yessss, I should be punished. Lol.



Jammin to Mos Def lately. This track is most definitely my mantra for this moment in my life. My mind's life. My life's mind.

This week has been pretty great because of my state of mind. I'm just ACHING to express myself...

A POSITIVE STATE OF MIND is NECESSARY for success. Even if that means just getting through the day.

Church was last nite.

The guy who plays the keyboard in our house band ministered to us.

He's so full of funk maaaaan... His approach in God and life is soooo gangsta. I mean, I was feeling everything he was saying. About prayer and fasting. And GIVING GOD ACCESS and trusting in the Lord and his mighty power. :-D

Makes me smile and just give thanks for his goodness. Because of who he is, I don't have to worry.

Yea I'm human and I get caught up in things and situations and emotions...but I know htat if I just take a minute and breath and get connected with the soul and Spitit within me... I know he got the victory.

So... with that said. I got that ole familiar itch in my fingertips.

I'm ready.

For the paint.

For the action.

Let's go.