The Truth is On It's Way

"Black Liberation Educate to Liberate The Liberator Motivators Open Mic Theatre Play Classes Secretary Black Legacy Assata Black Panthers Female Lesbian Feminism I Want a Wife Audre Lorde Lucille Clifton Nikki Giovanni Music Erykah Badu Green Eyes Jazz Nina Simone..."

That was what you would hear flyin around in my brain if you opened the door to it! And cut.

A new page in my Altered Book...



I have many more planned. But you know how school work gets in the way.. :-/ Do you?...

I fixed the painting...



Title: Sagaba

I have many other paintings sketched out and waiting to come alive. I just have to make time for them... Damn man... I'm preparing for the long haul...

I have a list of stuff to buy from Dick Blick... I'm waaaay low on art supplies. Brushes and mineral spirits mostly...

I've been drowning in Nina Simone and I recently was introed to the poetry/ music of Nikki Giovanni. Her Album "The Truth is On It's Way" is a compilation of Black Gospels with her reciting poetry in the midst.

One of my favorite songs is "Peace Be Still/ Great Pax White".



Another is "Ego Trippin"



You just can't deny an anointed sistah...

I'm reading Assata (her autobio). I can't believe I've been so ignorant. I had firm idea of my history. I payed more attention to what my teachers were saying than to what my father was reading. I feel like I'm in the process of claiming parts of myself that never found a home. Black Lesbian Activist Artist Peer Educator Student Leader. That is the me I know has a lot of work to do to fully realize it. All of those parts of me have had some experience but now comes the opportunity to come full force.

So. I'm hosting and Open Mic for Black Legacy. I'm the secretary by the way... :-)

Title is: Motivators. The concept is to use your words, knowledge, spirit and presence to uplift, motivate, educate and hopefully liberate your fellow students. Lot to look forward to. ESPECIALLY my debut on the mic.

Hmmm... What to say what to say??? I'm nervous. D-: I just hope I don't freeze up. I most likely won't though. The Spirit usually comes through in the clutch...

Some new poetry...



I am from Heaven
My lips opened for God's breath and when she shuddered the first baby kicked into tummy of time.
I scare myself sometimes.
Nights when I pray
kneeling to talk to myself
I hold my breath
treading the underside of the truth
grasping for the half lies that keep me here bound to this earth.
Time beats and life forgot how to hold itself
dear you...
When was the last time you spoke to the inkwell
be it brown or
blue skies don't match the color of my tears.
Falling down in waves
trickling down the sink
as I try to catch the last bit of insanity that brought me here.
You poisoned my pen and murdered my message
So what will you do when I decide to stop?
To with hold that last second of maybes and next times.
Claiming your now and hereafter.
Over your black blue bruising hands and lips, eyes and feet.
Assumption of possession of this great black peace.
My body, my dreams and my mind.
Think before I decide.



And that's it... Leave comments if you wish. I'm off to bed now. Class at 930am...

*yaaaawn*

deuces.

Blackbird

I'm up now. Oh. This is Love.

I partied all nite last nite. Then worked all day today. So, naturally, I was a zombie. Came home and KNOCKED OUT. DEAD TO THE WORLD.

Now I'm up after 10 hours of REFRESHING SLEEP.

Now playing- John Legend, Jennifer Hudson, Jazmine Sullivan, IndiaArie, Janelle Monae, K-OS, SADE...

And just I worked on a couple pages of Book of Revelations... It's a start. (Click for larger images...)



That's a pic of my one of my lil twin sisters when they were like one. They're two now.



And that's a pic of my mom when we still lived with my dad's mom in queens and me and my sis were like ten... idk. young. Yea.

Me and my girlfriend are having a problem. And It feels like it's... significant. Sigh. Smh. :-/

And so... Now's the time to sign off. I'm praying for another day ahead of me of course.

Goodnite.

...I'm not scared of lions and tigers and bears...

Blessing the Boats

Happy Belated New Year. BIG things are gonna happen for me.

Btw that's gonna my first my first tattoo.

"BIG" In really intricate, bold lettering but on a small part of my body. ...Big dreams, big goals, big thinking, big faith, big love.

Just. Big.

I'm starting another altered book. It feels like I'm looking backwards. Looking in old mags, old love notes and listening to throwback music...

The first one I did was in high school and it inspired me so much... more than my usual sketch book for some inexplicable reason...

Well.... It was done inside of a book called The Thin Place. Look it up if you want. By Kathryn Davis. I bought it in a .99 store. Wasn't a good story at all... But it served a higher purpose. :-)

Pictures... (click them for larger view...)









And...

The new one is named "Book of Revelations".



It feels like it's going to be just that... A compilation of the past year... a re-definition and re-dedication of myself...

It's being done on the book named "Attitude is Everything" by Kieth Harrell. A pretty great book. My dad had two copies so he let me use one.

NEW PAGES WILL BE POSTED AS THEY ARE COMPLETED. A few pages are started ALREADY!! :-)


In the Name of the
Creator, Healer
Magic & Faith
Amen, Ase, Blessed Be
Thank you for the infinite blessings
I witness, experience, and receive
May my heart, body, spirit and mind
Be open to the healing power of the divine.
May that healing flow
through, between, within, amid
the connections I have with all that lives.
May I walk in a path of love & light
May hope not fear be my drive
May I let go of control & expectation
Instead be responsible & live with intention
May I have the strength & courage for the journey ahead
May I be aware of where my feet tread
May patience ease dissatisfaction & unrest
May I speak truth, May my dreams manifest
And when my soul from this body's released
May my spirit fly free
my life have brought peace
and all those that I love know that to be.
In the Name of the
Creator, the Healer
Magic & Faith
Amen, Ase, Blessed Be

-A Daily Prayer by YaliniDream

Future::Sagaba::Oxygen

::IMPORTANT::LYRICS::(AND AWESUM BLOG LINK::)

"...she got that gift of gravity pulling to ask her name
she says sagaba
what’s it mean?
she says in ilokano
it translates into suffering..."

"...now i couldn’t stand to see the queen breathe her dreams away
and tell me her tomorrow will never become today"

"dreams be the ashes burnt and thrashing in the wind
flying out of the burning bush attached to sista’s hand
she whispers “word”
smiling giving thanks and living in
doubt, no longer as she figures out the riddle to the song
saying why must we suffer now to not suffer later if
later never comes soon enough to soothe the hatred
and hatred is the cancer spilling out love’s absence
and the absence is the void left from missing every chance to
challenge our fate and perhaps our very names
sista says peace and prayers for rain and change"

...I feel like the storyteller met me...in a way...word...

Yo. I've been feeling Blue Scholars deep in my bones for like... mad long...


☛ Sooo... I had a dream a couple of nights ago ☚

::::: I fell asleep and In the dream I was in the bed that I fell asleep in as if I was awake. But. I couldn't move!! I was so terrified!!

I tried to call my sister. She came in the room even though I couldn't even open my mouth. She couldn't help me I tried to lift me legs... my arms... my head... I couldn't do a damn thing. Like I was paralyzed.

Then a mirror appeared before me so that I could see my body. So I could see my struggle. Then I looked myself in the face and thought::: If God wants me to move, He will allow me to move:::

Then I moved my head to get in a more comfortable position to wait for God's word. To my surprise, my head moved so freely and that movement woke me up as if I had moved in my head while I was awake.

I woke up even more terrified because God has spoken to me. Then after a couple seconds with the light on in my room... I became elated.

I had been praying for a word from Him. A steady rock. An encouragement that everything will be alright in this season of intense turmoil in my life. And He came through.

That's why I stay on my grind, yo. I want my dreams...my goals...to be as big as my actions...

And so. Through all the prayer, and the church...and more prayer. And off the CHAIN pastors and ministers who sound crazy and act sorta ghetto... (God has a sense of humor ya'll)...

I'm blessed more than a muh f*cka. :-D

Jay-Z is right. Life starts when the church ends. But that's only cuz God follows wherever you take him. Don't have to keep ur praise in the building. I still raise and clap my hands anywhere I go.

Thank you Lord. :-)

Ok.. So... mad shit goin down in my family. Court cases. Yes. Plural.

Uhm...School madness. (When, oh when is my turn?? Soon!! Now!!)

Work stress. (Rude people don't deserve customer service. We need a slapping policy...gnome sayin'??)

But at this moment...

I'm dying to finish up...

...this painting.>>> *Up!*

Hey Hey Hey!!

Wats this?!!

:-D



(Music:: Shing02 "Luv (sic) pt. 2")

Reminds me of the painting I did of my lil sis...



>>*Oxygen*<< Inspired by Willy Mason "Oxygen"

"...I wanna be better than oxygen
So you can breathe when you're drowning and weak in the knees
I wanna speak louder than Ritalin
For all the children who think that they've got a disease
I wanna be cooler than t.v.
For all the kids that are wondering what they are going to be
We can be stronger than bombs
If you're singing along and you know that you really believe
We can be richer than industry
As long as we know that there's things that we don't really need
We can speak louder than ignorance
Cause we speak in silence every time our eyes meet...."

It's amazing. It's beautiful. Peace.