Stay Vibrating Higher...

I've been having great big long days... They feel so unreal when I get home. They feel like eternities and are worth more than gold... Everyday I expand and Im learning to live with Purpose. Knowledge not just Faith. Because faith is married to doubt... Ya know?? I don't wanna doubt my life. I wanna live without fear. Fear holds me from being that one I know that I can become. I gotta push back against myself sometimes...

And I'm learning that success is married to failure.


Everything has happened for a reason. And everything I do must be a preparation for what will come. I know I will get what I have prayed for. I am building up momentum. I am all that there is and I operate through Love. It's all love. It's all for the love...


I met and connected with actor Mel Jackson today at Hue-Man Bookstore in Harlem. He was doin a theatre workshop which turned into a spiritual gathering focused on moving forward and fulfilling your purpose given by the Creator, God, Love, Nature... through a gift you are born with.

(Of course I gotta put my soul mama on this post. I'm gonna see both my mamas (J Monae and E Badu) on June 7th!!)

Once we know. We have to make a decision which direction we will go without fear or doubt. First steps are the hardest. And I have to take mine 2mm. Now. NOW!!! As I type this letter... I just continued a painting and I wanna continue my altered book and publish some poetry. Make my lists and get on my grind. Jump up from bed running no even stepping anymore. Dance classes are in effect this summer!

I often wonder what gift I am to focus on to bring Light and Love into this world so that I can help save it... Is it painting? Singing? Dancing? Writing? Speaking? Smiling...? But Im gonna stop wondering. I'ma just gonna follow the flow of what is natural for me. Whatever motivation comes to me. Make myself available for the light... Sit in a room alone and let it happen. Pay attention to my dreams.

Becoming more comfortable with the idea of embarrassment because of me showing my soul in front of others.... But that's how we know its real... We feel it. And it's a strong pulse that just leads me and guides me...

Systems of Manifestation of Creativity vary every day for me. You know how I'm always all over the place and I wanna do so much...

False Evidence Appearing Real gets in my way though....!! Grrr. >=(

Anyway... My tattoos and one piercing and hair dye is in effect this summer also. I feel my wings... I'm grooving with mad new music... I dance in my room and imagine choreographing and singing in concert and shit... I gotta make it happen.

Also, I broke up with my Jersey girl. By far the best relationship I've ever been a part of. Also by far the most cataclysmic... Hm.

So I'm a free agent and I'm enjoying another certain beautiful girl... She's just beautiful. We groove so well. So much alike but so very different. Let's call her Daisy the Poet. =) But of course complications arise... But it's ok because I don't need commitment to anyone but myself rite now...

I'm going to focus on my coconut tree soul for a while...