Incurable Humanist: Chapter 2: turn my head

Heartless - Kanye West

ugh....UGH!!!! Grrr....I hate it!!!

I wish I was a baby. They have no worries. All they do is make a sound and the world moves to their liking...their purpose...

<---Tahlia. Not a care in the world. Loves the Upside Down Show.

Hanna--->
Happy go lucky...ain't she??

I just realized that I hit bottom a little while ago. And, I sat there waiting for people to pick me up again. That's why I'm glad life is the way it is. You're not a baby for long.

I've depended on a lot of things...a lot of people...a lot of circumstances...to determine how I will get on. And, life being the way it is, promptly bitch slapped me a couple times so I'd get the picture.

I'm the only one who can control me. That scares me and it also liberates me. I'm the kind of person who is subtlety self destructive. I just don't know when to do things. I'm never on time and I'm confused as to which choice i should make. Then that leads to things making the choice for me.

So I walk fast. And I try hard. So hard. With all my heart and mind to find out when to not try so hard. But, in all reality, that's how I was brought up.

"Saying you can't means you don't try."<---damn parents...

I'll never understand life and all it's coincidences and cruel realities and constant changes. Even if I grow up to be 80, 90 years old. If a youngin comes up to me, asks..."what do you do when...(profound life subject)...???".

Old, short, wrinkly me (still a hottie)- "Me?? You're asking me?? No idea. I have no idea. :-/ Sorry. :-) Ask the man upstairs. :-P"

I just realized that when I'm old and wrinkly...I'm gonna be texting and using smileys and shit like that...and all the youngins are probably gonna be telepathic and what not.

And, so...as i get my self together...I'm watching my self fall apart...to build something...you have to tear down what was there before...leave the foundation...

With my head down, I drew this in physics when I was supposed to be doing a lab.